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[helluvamess]

"If you're hearing this then I can't be fucked answering right now or some other shit-covered fuckwich is going down on this boat so I'll get back to you when the fuck I can!"

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[The door to Blitzø's cabin looks like a typical shitty apartment door. Inside is pretty much exactly a shitty apartment. The door marked "Loona's room" does not open when tried and it appears that Blitzø himself sleeps on the couch. The walls are covered with images and drawings of horses, however every picture of Blitzø has his face scribbled over.]

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[helluvamess]

Three months. It feels like a lot, but guiltily, Blitzø thinks how long his own situation would have been when Stolas showed up. Not that different.

"Maybe the problem was there wasn't a way," he offers after a long moment. "Maybe thinking that you could find some way to make it all easier for yourself was the real problem."

It's said to Abel, but he's thinking of himself as he says it. How he'd tried to make Stolas pick for him, how everything had just gotten worse, messier, and now he wasn't even certain what they meant to each other. He likes Abel, even if it's not the same way he likes Alexei, and he doesn't want him to go through the same shit.

"He's gonna need a little while to deal with it," he says. "And I'm not gonna say anything about he feels about it to you or the other way around. But you're gonna have to think about what you want and give him a chance to think about what he wants. And what you will do if he doesn't want what you do."

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[inthebiblicalsense]

He'd been told he overcomplicated it, so he pivoted, that he should make sure what he wanted and what Cain wanted was clear, and to be completely honest. Some of the advice he'd gotten he probably could have gone without, but he'd spent time to sort through, figure out the best of it.

"I want to give him his space to think about it...but I didnt- I wasn't trying to make this as complicated as it's gotten. When I got here I'd just...we broke up, and I knew I was going to see him again, but then I go and make friends who tell me it's okay to be upset, that it would be healthy to see other people and then suddenly I have some one I can actually talk to, who understands what I went through and he can be so nice about it." Nice enough that holding his hand and sleeping in his bed just to sleep feels far better than sleeping with him sometimes.

"And I wanted to say so much more, explain myself, but the moment I said anything he'd already started freaking out, and it... it hurts, seeing him like that, and it's worse when I know that I did that. I'm supposed to protect him..." and he's still so stuck on what he might have done differently, how this had gone to start thinking about what he's going to do if he isn't okay with it.

That was one route he hadn't wanted to unravel because he isn't sure he had the self control or the tools to do that, to stop, cut Norton off and part of him thinks that he shouldn't have to, but if Alexei turns around and tells him no, he has no idea how he's going to deal with that.